Solo Blogging

So, all my blogging buddies haven't been blogging....ha, ha. I threw out a challenge to Jessica that if she blogs EVERYDAY in May, I will take her out to a yummy mexican restaurant, but if she doesn't, she has to take me. She accepted my challenge! Yay!

Early Mornings

I've been getting up with John every morning this week at 4:00 AM. It's really nice actually, I am not rushed, I get to eat breakfast, I can stay in the shower a few extra minutes, and I workout first thing. Eventually I want to start running in the morning with him, but I have to start slow. I only exercised a few times in Portland, so I need to get myself back on track again. Now, I am pretty tired from this early morning thing, but I'm hoping I will get used to it soon!

Me at work

What is one to do when on a break and one doesn't smoke cigarettes, cause they're really gross and nasty, and you've already done Facebook'd yourself out? Well, if you have a camera, you entertain yourself with taking a few dork pictures of yourself.....well, I do anyways!

Normal Me

Weirdness

This one was inspired by all the chicks that post pics of themselves on Facebook. What is up with the lip thing from these girls? Do they think they become gangster when they do this? Uh, no. If you wanna be gangsta, just talk like this, "fo' sho' yo!" I tried this talk with John yesterday, and his response was "is that japanese for yes?" Then I was like, "gangsta for yes." Wow, that was a ramble........

Move In and Easter Sunday

Well, I had a very busy Wknd. Friday my mom and I went to Portland to try and find a few things that had been sold of mine. Didn't have any luck, but I did get lucky when I got home, because I found a couple of very important things (my promise ring that John gave me 20 years ago, and my Mothers ring that he gave me several years ago) that I had hidden in my vanity. So, I was excited about that, it was like finding lost treasure. Also on Friday, I started moving my things back home. Johns bachelor room is only now a bachelor wall, and of course the bachelor bathroom is now pretty girlie ;)

Saturday we colored eggs (my dang camera battery was dead, so no pictures), ran around trying to find a heating element for the oven, and finished moving. Jess and Nick got themselves a cozy new bed.

Sunday of course was Easter. I took a ton of pictures (over 100), no, I didn't post them all....ha, ha....but I posted a BUNCH!!

Peace sign.....3D style

Jess and John trying to figure out some camera settings.



I hadn't hugged H in over 2 stinkin months.....it was nice!

David intentionally posed like this!

What do you know, Jen intentionally posed like this as well! I asked her permission to post this picture on here, she said, yes, but NO to Facebook.....ha, ha

What is up with all these intentional poses.....lol!

David and John looking up gun stuff. Meanwhile the kids were in the kitchen waiting patiently for egg hunting.

LOVE!!!!

I love this man!

John got us all Pokemon cards for Easter, and Jess and Him had to check theirs out!

Seriously, all she wanted were those Peeps. Man, I wish kids could always be pleased with only Peeps.....hee, hee!

Gotta have a Bunny!

Looking forward to this Wknd

Today is Thursday, but today is my Friday, end of tax season, so we take an extra day off. I'm excited for this wknd. I get to see John more.....he works at the mill when he gets off work at D&O, and he doesn't get home until late during the week, so I don't get to see him much. Me and Jess are going to color eggs and decorate Easter sugar cookies on Saturday. Then of course Easter Sunday with the family. I'm looking forward to this holiday so much. I missed so many traditions with Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and even Valentines Day. This is the first holiday again with my family, and I'm glad it's Easter. As you all know, Halloween is my favorite, but I think now it's going to be Easter. It's a fresh start, just like Spring! I could go into several metaphors (a new birth, coming out of a tomb), you get the idea. But ya, this is going to be a very special time. I will take a lot of pictures too!

I'm so lucky!

This past week has been so good. It's so nice being back in Salem and mending realationships with my family. It's really strange to me, but in a good way. The last 9 months have been a whirlwind. I was living in a completely different world, a world I would NEVER want to be in again. And I ask myself at times "who was that person?", and it was me. Scarey in a way! It's amazing how when you go through things, you look at the world differently. I will never take my life, my family, or love for granted again. I look back now, and can't honestly say what the heck I was thinking.

I'm so glad for this blog. The other day, I went back and reread all my posts, and thought "I had a really good life." It's funny in a way, I didn't do one post in the last 9 months, and I'm glad for that, because this blog will only be filled with memories of the people that matter, the people that truly love and care about me, the people that I love so deeply. At times it literally feels like I'm dying inside when I think of what I did to them. I'm so lucky that they are so forgiving.

I can't believe that John and I have this chance to be together again either, it's still very weird to me. Both of us never thought it would ever happen. It's crazy how you search and search for something, but what you are searching for has been there the whole time. A lot of healing needs to happen, but that will only come with time. I'm so very lucky!

I may not be a christian, but I still refer to scripture. This verse has taken on new meaning for me now..............

Love is patient and kind;

love does not envy or boast;

it is not arrogant or rude.

It does not insist on its own way;

it is not irritable or resentful;

it does not rejoice at wrongdoing,

but rejoices with the truth.

Love bears all things,

believes all things,

hopes all things,

endures all things.

Love never ends.

Date Night

John picked me up on Friday night, roses in hand for our first official date. It was super sweet. We went back to his place and watched the new Harry Potter movie. Jess said "I'm not going to be a part of date night" so she shut the doors into the living room, while I'm sure she Facebooked in the other room. Then a few minutes later, the door opens and there's a camera and she takes a picture of us sitting in the chair. It was super funny. I'm like, "wow, does this happen on all your dates?" Ha, ha. The next day we hung out a bit and then went to see True Grit with some friends of Johns. This wknd was soooo fun and exciting (no, I won't give you details on my exciting times), and Korissa kept asking, "Grandma, are you staying?" It was so sweet.

You know what I kick!!!

I saw the movie Sucker Punch a couple of weeks ago, and it was so inspiring to me. It just reminded me so much of how WE create our life. We are the ones that choose who effects us. So, I realized that I don't want my life to be full of drama, and people who are cruel. It made me realize that I don't have to let those people even cross my mind, because I hold the key.

I am in love with this song by Bjork......... "Army Of Me" stand up you've got to manage i won't sympathize anymore and if you complain once more you'll meet an army of me you're allright there's nothing wrong self-sufficience please! and get to work and if you complain once more you'll meet an army of me you're on your own now we won't save you your rescue-squad is too exhausted and if you complain once more you'll meet an army of me

I'm all about symbols, so to me, a sword (yep, I went out and got me a sword) represents the symbol that I "kick-ass!" I did some self portraits of me and my new sword, and let me tell you, it's empowering!

I'm Baaaack!!!

Going to start this blog thing again. I've been doing some creative things with self portraits and making up cool posters to get myself back! I've been through a lot of stuff these past 9 months. I won't go into the details here, because frankly, it's not worth it. But, I did lose the trust my family had for me in the process, and well, that just sucks!! I'm sooooo freakin sorry. It's going to take a while for everyone to heal I'm sure. I was lost for a while, but you know what they say......